maybe you'll rest sometimes
Ah, I can breathe again.
This weekend was a good one. A friend came to visit for a couple days and a few of us went camping. Being in the middle of nowhere is great. I don’t think I could trade a clear night sky for anything save enlightenment. It seems that when I lie down and look up at the stars I can somewhat be at peace. At the same time, though, I’m still restless and have a hard time sitting in one spot too long.
It’s strange to know that when I sit down and stop, my mind keeps going. I think about all the other things that I should or could or need to be doing. So my mind is never really with me. It’s always one step ahead and I’m always left chasing it, feeling burnt out every step of the way.
For me, that’s an important realization. When I sit, I would like to sit. I would like my mind to do the same.
5 comments:
I know what you mean about your mind never resting. It's hard to be in the moment at times. I have started to train my mind to do this - as soon as I catch myself starting to wander, I'll bring myself back to what is going on now. I think it's good to think ahead, and good to make plans, but it's just as important to live life as it is NOW. Otherwise you wake up one day and wonder where it all went.
Sounds like you had a nice time. :)
thanks for the compliment. i think you'd be wise to start on the keys again...you know music well and would bring something new to the table i'm sure. until you do that, write write write! haha talk soon
Know exactly what you mean! There are times im so exhausted, i just wanna crash into bed and SLEEP! but no, my mind for some reason has to run through events of the ENTIRE day. And there's always a song playing. always. GAAAH.
on a side note, i tried reading catcher in the rye and could'nt! what did you like about it? im wondering if i missed some deeply profound thing since everyone seems to praise it highly!!
Try sitting in the sun, I find that helps my mind slowing down :-)
Man, I wish I could do that too ... I've never been able to think of one thing at a time. I could be having a very serious conversation with someone, and be thinking of something completely random all the while.
And I think I could use a weekend off too :)
Also, I've watched the stars on a clear night sky. And I've also watched clouds roll by on a bright day while lying down on the grass. That's just as beautiful ... at least it is for me :)
Good times!
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